Blogging
Sure, my first blog on my blog about obsessions can be about blogging.
Yeah, I take this shit back to the preteen years. I'm talking the nineties, when this girl was still a virgin, still scared of kissing, in fact, and my pal mentions her use of the website freeopendiary.com. Shooot, I'm so in!
Then we had deadjournal.com, livejournal.com, myspace.com. I've since forgotten the password to the DJ, still use the LJ, and have never forgiven myspace for revamping and deleting all my memories. Granted, a few years before the webite did it, a vindictive friend deleted about eight years of pretty angsty shit first. Oh, I wrote about boys mostly, and being depressed and wanting to hurt myself. Pretty disgusting to read later on, but it had to be done.
When opendiary disappeared, I cried. A lot. I had written about my first sexual experience in there, experimented with literotica, saved strange AIM conversations with my strange friends. The owner of the site didn't even warn us. Just, poof. Shit was gone. Tragic.
I love blogging because it marries the idea of privacy and attention so gloriously. Yeah, it's my diary. But I want all ya'all to look at it! I want you to know about my life. I've never been a private person. I tell everybody everything. What better way to do that than using the internet! It doesn't hurt my hand nearly as much to type as to write via pen and paper, or mechanical pencil. And it's so damn hard ot find .5 mechanical pencils! I like the tiny writing, the super fine tip. It's so cute and satisfying to write so itty bitty.
I want to share myself. I'm generous. I want to share the inane, insane bullshit I keep stored in my skull. Blogging gives me the illusion of an audience. I love it. I fucking love blogging, I write blogs in my head all day every day, it's so much easier than writing that memoir that is my true dream, my real fantasy for this writing skill I have a little sprinkle of. My talent, for the internet to see. Hm.
I like to read a lot of other blogs, too. MY friends, and random strangers, and internet celebrities. Here are some blogs I like!